I know I’m still pretty amateur at everything I do (writing, drawing etc.) and I know that it’s fine for now, still I feel like I’m stuck. It is not a coincidence that I didn’t really show up here or anywhere else. Okay, I was on my holiday for a week and of course I had a lot of things to do, a lot of people to meet so -I think it’s a good excuse- I didn’t write or draw anything. I took some pics though. (Our garden at home is magical!)
I’m trying to get back to my creativity and enthusiasm but the thing is I don’t know where to start. I want everything at the same time which means I’m not doing anything. So I’m making a schedule. Today at 3 PM I’m going to write something. (Not my novel though because I ended up not liking the story that I’d planned…not a big surprise I guess.) At about 5 PM I’ll switch to drawing. Or at least let’s hope that I’ll do so. Also I’m going to add a creative activity to every day in my calender and train my willpower to keep it.
In the meantime I should try and meet some friends whom I haven’t seen for ages but that takes time. I really don’t feel like spending every evening alone though, especially now that I’m back from home and I feel a bit lonely. Which I know will pass soon as it always does. So let’s rearrange my life!
It wouldn’t really be fair if I didn’t post my newest experience in drawing.
In the evening of the day when I had that rather awkward upside down drawing, I told you about in my previous post, I gave it another shot. The same picture of Stranvinsky and a tired mind that was what I had and maybe that was what I needed to “succeed”. Okay, I still wasn’t very happy with my drawing but it looked better to me than the first one.
Next evening I tried a new picture, with a German knight on it, which seemed to be much more difficult but I also liked it better (I don’t know how much ‘liking’ counts in upside down drawing…). And the result:
I felt that it was good while I was doing it, still I was surprised when I turned the paper. I didn’t expect it to be this good. So I have to say that upside down drawing does work! And I’m more enthusiastic than ever…
Shoot me if I ever again find out such a thing as learning a new skill!
I believe that this “switch to your right brain” method works. I believe that if I learn how to see I will be able to draw realistically as well.
But what if my left side of the brain just doesn’t want to shut up??? I tried the first few exercises and one of them was upside down drawing where the main thing is that you don’t know what you are drawing so your left brain would stop messing around and let the right one work. Or even if you recognise something, that now you are working on a face you should just concentrate on the lines how they curve and not on the whole of it.
I know that I shouldn’t have had thoughts but I heard them coming up anyway: “oh that’s a finger” or “now you are drawing the bar of the chair!” or even better: “look, that doesn’t look the same whatever it is, you can’t even draw a straight line, you will never learn how to draw!”
Then I start to argue: “oh, okay now you shut up! It’s enough! Let me work!” And the reply comes: “Okay, you don’t have to get so upset! Aren’t you supposed to be in a peaceful state?”
“Yes I am, but how the hell should I go there if you keep talking to me? No more talking!”
And of course my upside down drawing doesn’t look fantastic. But there is something that my left hemisphere doesn’t know.. that I’m a pretty determined. Within a few weeks I’m going to be able to draw.